I gave blood today. It was horrible and I won't do it again until the next time they make me feel morally obliged to do so.
When I got there, I was already nervous, being a complete wuss. Filled in my forms etc, had my thumb attacked with that stupid staple pin thing and then headed over to be made to feel even more like a pin cushion. I of course started crying, which I don't think helped the poor nervous boy who was taking care of me. He was shaking more than I was, which made me even worse. Anyway, I stupidly refused the anesthetic, he hammered a huge needle into one of my veins, and then made awkward conversation with me in order to 'take my mind off of things'. It just didn't work. I lay there for about five minutes while they drained me, him giving me a running commentary of how full the blood bag was. When we were three quarters up however, he called over some guy and they started pointing at my arm, and the bag, and discussing in quiet voices.
In the end, I endured all that only to be told that my sample was useless as there was air in the blood bag as the needle wasn't in properly or something, which might explain why there were drops of my blood all over the floor. It was a bad experience. Even the club didn't cheer me up.
Kathyrn, I don't know what you are trying to instigate but when I do, I think you're gonna be for it.
Finally, a matter has been brought to my attention which I think it is time to address because it has gone on long enough.
Never, ever have I been anything other than civil to you. Never have I uttered those unholy words 'I hate you' - correct? Why then you supposedly feel the need to justify your actions by victimizing yourself to my friends I'll never know. Believe me, it really is unnecessary. Drag my name through the muck by all means. Portray me as the embittered, spiteful bitch who's making your life a misery if it helps you sleep at night. Truth be told however, 'I nothing you'. You're the only one who managed to satisfy my expectations. You did no more or less than what I or anyone else for that matter believed you to be capable of so stop pretending to worry about it. And don't for God's sake use this as another excuse to exaggerate my feeling for you or lack there of.
I hate the British Constitution.